Saturday, June 17, 2017

What May Become of a Promise?


Matt at Lake Musconetcong 2009

I posted last after midnight following the 14th on Mountain Lake. Ever since, I've kept reviewing in my mind what I wrote about promises, and I know better than to think I can promise you a full answer in this post. All of my posts are off the cuff, written in haste. Not out of any disrespect for my readers or for blogging, but because I believe blogs--web logs--are appropriately this and not a writer's most developed work. The very thought of using a Google gadget to present my best work feels absurd. But I write as well as I possibly can within this medium, and the limit I place on my time with it, without obsessively going back to improve on posts. I mostly let them be as faithful accounts of responses to events and ideas.

That most recent post features a disturbingly abrupt sentence transition. From the immense promise of Lake Musconetcong fulfilled, to "That's broken." I wrote the post just this way honestly, in light of how all of those five years of fishing the lake, many times each year with my son, came upon me whole out on Mountain Lake, but instead of my entering their memory, I let them go. Just like putting down a book. Because I know--again from experience--what it is to enter an enormous state of memory, an involvement I've learned is usually best to forego. It is, if things that need to get done in the present will get finished.

So now I pose it to you. What's the better faith perhaps? To indulgently dive into every mental state that issues from the depths, even if they imply your loved ones, or to have the mastery to let them go, knowing you're not God, but if you believe in the value of what you've done, their fulfilled promise will persist in your life, regardless of turning to present events instead of indulging past memory. Every new event is born out of past events anyway.

A clue is offered by two very wise men of the deep past, Socrates and Plato. When Matt and I fished Lake Musconetcong, the experiences were fully about the earthly beauty he and I engaged together. Except for two things. The church bell chime we heard at 6:00 p.m. almost every time out. And an ice cream truck jingle with resonance up in the hills. Our minds lifted over the present, reminded that everything is eerily eternal. I like to believe that Matt, even as a young boy, had an inkling of this. We always talked about the church bells and the ice cream truck jingle. He expressed his own feelings about this music. When he was three, I explained to him how existence must be eternal, since something cannot come from nothing, and many times he reviewed this idea with me.

Socrates believed earthly beauty reminds us of Eternal Forms in a Realm Beyond. To me, the affairs with Forms in this Realm Beyond have always seemed like a cartoon magazine. I guess for some of us, that's heaven, but even as a boy, cartoons offered me very little interest compared to books about real things here on earth. Socrates and Plato did not get the metaphysical description quite right. Besides, Plato expressed attitudes about life here on earth that always appall me. Rather than bodily life as any "prison," I assure my readers--if there is a Beyond I will awake to upon my death, I will gladly visit. But what I really want is to return here on earth, reborn. I don't mind spending another life as someone else, because a human being is a human being. Besides, if this will possibly be the case at all, something of me will remain.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Nice Bass at Mountain Lake


I promised Mike we would catch some nice bass. I can make a promise like that because of experience. I've never come to Mountain Lake before. I've seen it from atop Jenny Jump Mountain in Warren County, where it sits below, a natural lake of 122 acres spring and stream fed, one of many other North Jersey Lakes I've fished and have not fished--all of which I have faith in.

That faith is something I don't seem to ultimately understand, something deeper than character and personality and underlying things themselves as if belonging to the will of events. These lakes just serve as my altars. But character and personality have a lot to do with receiving it--and going out to get it. Before the real action finally happened, Mike could have thought I was one cocky chump, because making a promise like that--for what the past seven hours had amounted to--was going to prove nothing but wrong. And I told Mike, he had quit fishing an hour ago and felt ready to go home, "You have resolve." I meant this absolutely. He was done. "I'm an impulsive idiot," I said without a trace of self-inflicted irony. My faith in the bass had never faded. (And what's that poking into my mind now? What my wife used to say of me. "God protects idiots and fools.")

I too said the lake must be bad...for some odd reason. Look at these weedlines, look at these overhangs, that fallen treetrunk submerged. Where are the bass? And Mike could tell you, every disparagement I uttered was answered in counterpoint by fishing anecdotes, some I probably spent 20 minutes telling. I told him about Lake Musconetcong because I did not really believe Mountain Lake is bad...the evidence kept telling us it is bad, and perhaps, if we were sophisticated moderns as we presumably should be and behaved with "proper" scientific and abysmally false attitude, we would accept the evidence, pass judgment, and lose faith. No. There's always more to discover. If I were a real scientist, why would I conclude upon any evidence, instead of looking for a new twist? At Lake Musconetcong, I told Mike, we caught one bass during all of the sunny hot afternoons we fished there, and that one nine inches. Presently we sat casting under sun and heat. But my son and I caught as many as 20 at that Morris and Sussex County impoundment during the hour-and-a-half around sunset.

Mike and I began in the relatively shallow southern corner, where I felt certain this was going to be tough fishing. Water clarity seemed a lot worse than really was. Soon I gave some relief to an earlier utterance about my preference for clear water, when I saw two-foot visibility, some aquatic vegetation under the squareback canoe. Heading east along the shoreline, we judged visibility at about three-and-a-half feet. Not bad, really. I had felt the initial let-down as no affront to my promise, but it didn't feel good, so working eastward, to see a little bass in thick weeds swipe at a damselfly got me going. I switched to a five-inch slow-sinking traditional worm sort of harnessed to a worm hook, abandoning a Senko, cast to another bass doing the same, and caught a seven-incher.

Even if my promise had failed, as the photo shows the first of bass fulfilling it, promises are made to be broken, and before we got into the serious action, I brooded on the likes of this as the sun had fallen behind the western ridge, thinking of years on Lake Musconetcong with my young son now soon to leave for Boston University, saying farewell to the immense promise Lake Musconetcong fulfilled for us, much less by size and weight than the bond of love between father and son that must in some way be eternal. That's gone. The promise is broken. And instead of feeling any crush of defeat, I simply accepted the truth. Life takes new turns. But there's more to the past than anyone alive can know. A man or woman--not a child--can know there is more through depths of nostalgia he or she finds bottomless. No matter how far the spirit may travel backward in time, there is no endpoint to the quality of resolution. Anyone who makes this journey either turns back to the present--or goes helplessly mad.

Fishing more quality weedlines, my only concern was the sharp drop-off. I catch plenty of big summer bass on sharp drops. At one point, I sighted a musky of about 32 inches come to the surface just yards in front of me. I cast a big Rat-L-Trap repeatedly, just in case, but out of vanity. At Tilcon Lake, for one example of drops, just about all you find is these. When I examined the Lake Survey Map Guide depiction of Mountain Lake, I judged the southern corner best--shallow (I was looking at eight to 12 feet) weeds. More and less flat. I changed my mind after coming upon the northern corner--similar, but the quality felt more appealing with pocket water.

At first, I was disgusted. Some guy in a bassboat--friendly--had just chopped a lot of weeds up with a high-power bow mount. He was skunked. We reported a few. We had come upon two quick bass--almost nine inches and almost 12 inches--where a stream enters. Very shallow.  Two feet at most. Some rocks. Gravel. I noticed water temperature fell from 82 to 80. Right where the stream enters, who knows how cool. But I cast there.

"Topwaters," I thought about this northern cove. But I continued directly to the western shore.

The western shore felt vaguely like a goal reached. Here darkness. Sun behind ridge; when I shot a photo of excellent overhang for my files, I thought shutter speed--pretty slow--might blur resolution. Actually, did not. But now I was myself in deep. Slowed way down. Once this darkness came over us, time itself slowed, as if without so much racing light, it didn't have to go anywhere. Mike's Rapala was racked on his hook keeper, rod set aside. But I fished with absorbed focus. I heard strange rumblings from across the lake and beyond in the woods. Finally I understood the clamor was rock music.

It felt like I fished in that shadow three hours. The ramp perhaps three hundred yards distant, I reached for my box of topwater plugs. At first, I reached for the 3/8th ounce Rebel Pop-R on which I caught my bass of nearly five pounds at Mount Hope Pond, 2011. Twinge of guilt. On one of my son's rods--Matt with me an hour before sunrise in the dark--instead of handing him that rod and telling him where to cast--I cast. That first cast: "Bloop, bloop, bloop--BAM!"

I passed on that plug with the ambiguous memory embedded on it, even though I felt--big plug, big bass. I looked left and saw the quarter-ounce Rebel Pop-R I was pretty sure is the one Matt gave me as part of a birthday or Christmas gift. These weedlines were associated with even steeper drop. I didn't fish them long. Against what I knew was Mike's wish, I clocked the electric onto its highest speed, and we headed back to the northern cove. That's what it is--structurally--more than corner, really. I felt possibility.

Soon, I saw nervous water. "That's a nice fish," I said. "Um, huh," Mike said. He's directly on point. Yeah, that's what it is.

How big, I couldn't tell for sure, but I thought three pounds. It was just a fleeting ripple, but I could tell something nice. Depth was marking eight feet, and I had to get the canoe in closer to the pockets and weedy mess a weedless frog would better suit, where I guess five or six feet of water fell below. When fishing otherwise, I cast weightless plastic worms--by habit alone--with much better accuracy than plugs. Third cast, the bass took that Rebel hard. "Mike, it's a big one, get the net." I didn't measure her. At least 18 inches, maybe almost 19. The Rebel was almost in the gullet. I had to use a hemostat to get it out, and cleanly.

Again, nervous water. This bass weighed two-and-half pounds, I'm sure. About 16 1/2 inches and fat. Further eastward, I caught a 15-incher, and then as we progressed further, carefully working those weeds--as Mike observed my function I suppose in close detail and I know with resolve--I said, "I think that was the 10-minute window." We fished another 10 minutes and then I said, "Let's go home." The day's promise--and it was that--fulfilled in 10 minutes' time after hours that seemed to almost fill years. I compared what had just had happened to fishing redfish on South Carolina inshore flats near Charleston. Sight fishing my son and I enjoyed. Sighting nervous water and casting to it. Today's fishing was more like Lake Musconetcong's--all topwater fishing--than Tilcon Lake's.




Wednesday, June 14, 2017

A Little Variation between Plugs can Make All the Difference


Not long after David Jeon's amazing catch of a 22 1/2-inch smallmouth, I felt I better pack up and head to the river. First I planned on a solo trip last Thursday or Friday. Or I might have quickly amended plans and invited Mike, don't clearly remember at present though he's been in and out of this picture, and soon my son and I had plans for Saturday morning. Something came up in his life. So Sunday morning we'd go. He went to a party Saturday night, revised plan still in place--we would also canoe a stretch--but my gut told me, "He's not coming home." Sure enough, I woke up at 8:00 Sunday morning instead of 4:00, my wife telling me, "If your alarm had gone off, I was going to shut it off for you before you would have got up." 

This morning I got up at 8:10, snatching 20 minutes after the alarm first sounded, because weirdly I woke up first around 4:00. "That counts for a power nap," I told myself, preparing to load up and go, and it did. But when I got to the river, I took one cast with the little topwater plug I had tied on Saturday night for very early Sunday morning, and saw myself acting like a complete fool, because sun was already high and it felt near 90 degrees. Tied on an X-Rap and began an arduous quest upriver, having first fished thoroughly the set of connected pools near where I parked. I thought of trout, but this was no trout environment in the heat and that warming water.

I stubbornly kept to that X-Rap, knowing that in my book, it's a lure for cool water. I've witnessed Noel Sell catch smallmouths in the river in July on little jerkbaits, but in my fanciful way, I chalk his success up to the far corners of the world he finds these specially crafted lures at very high prices, knowing that there's surely more truth to the success of these subtly different plugs than fancy anyway. I've seen a little variation make all the difference in catches one too many times.

It really felt like I was out for hours. I had to see a Chinese tailor to refit my dress pants, an appointment I could not miss since we're down to the wire on my son's high school graduation. Had left my flip phone in my car. Don't bother with a "mobile device." Haven't worn a watch in many years. I barreled on to my favorite spot and realized I was only fooling myself about the pre and post-summer X-Rap. I had seen a buck smallmouth guarding a bed, but regardless, I declared that the situation called for my summer favorite. I tied on a Senko-style worm, and third cast, caught that nice 13-incher photographed. I tried to tease another with three more casts, then marched back, casting only once as I kept on trudging, telling myself if it's 11:00 when I get seated, I'm OK. Not sure I was OK.

It was 10:36.

Before I met with the tailor, I stood on the bathroom scale. For the first time since 1993, I'm under 200 pounds. The tailor laughed it off. So did I. Have lost too much weight. He can't refit the pants.

If you look sharp, you can see the engineer's cabin of a freight train. I've wanted to get a shot of a train coming onto this bridge for the past eight years, but need to situate further downstream to get a clean shot.

My steady companion.